Tuesday, February 7, 2012

32 Weeks...



I had my 32 week appointment yesterday. It didn't go as I had hoped. I'm starting to show signs of preeclampsia. 32 weeks is when I started showing signs of it with Amelia as well. My blood pressure was up, I had gained 10 pounds in 5 weeks, I've been having some pain in a certain area that concerned my doctor, and he couldn't help but notice my puffy face. Sooooo...I now have to go twice a week to see my doctor. They're going to see if it gets any better and if it doesn't, we'll start steroid shots to prepare Sydney for an early delivery. I cried most of yesterday afternoon. I really don't want her to have to spend time in the NICU like Amelia did. I don't feel prepared for her arrival in regards to her room and things like that, but mainly I just want her to be able to stay put for as long as possible. I learned with Amelia's birth that her room is the least of my worries. :) We were supposed to set the c-section date yesterday but my doctor said he didn't want to do that. He feels like it's going to be earlier than what we want regardless. I've been instructed to take it easy, drink lots of water, and put my feet up while laying on my left side for at least an hour every day.

By now, Sydney weighs about 3.75 pounds and is about 16.7 inches long. She'll gain a third to half of her birth weight during the next 7 weeks as she fattens up for survival outside the womb.

I could most definitely sit and worry and let my mind go to all of the "what-if's" but I'm choosing to give it to God every time I'm tempted to worry. My devotional a few days ago spoke about how we have to ask the Holy Spirit to control our thoughts, for the mind controlled by the Spirit is Life and Peace. It went on to say, we can have as much of God and His peace as we want, it all starts with the many choices we make during the day. We'll never run out of things to worry about but we can choose to trust Him no matter what. (Jesus Calling - February 5th)

I'm giving it to God each and every time my mind starts to wander - I'm choosing peace over worry.

"The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace." -Romans 8:6

Love to all,

18 comments:

Jenna said...

I'm so sorry Jill - I know that has to be so scary and not at all what you wanted to hear. I'm praying for you and for that sweet girl! Love ya'll!

Susy said...

I'm praying for you and Sydney! I hope she can stay put a little longer. There are so many "what-ifs" with pregnancy...I've found that my hope is the same: that this baby stays put and stays healthy as long as possible! Every time you start to worry, just think that somewhere someone is saying a prayer for both of you and hopefully that will make it a little easier! Take it easy!

Maydelin said...

Wow I cant Believe that you all ready has 32 weeks!!!

And don't worry everything is gonna be Ok!

Shannon said...

Oh Jill, praying for you and Sydney! I know that is not what you wanted to happen yesterday. I started showing the signs at 34 weeks with Westin. I'm praying we both get our scheduled csections with no magnesium! Keep us posted! Praying!

Ashley said...

Many prayers will be going up for you and that precious baby in the days to come.

Courtney said...

Man oh man. I'm so sorry about the bummer of a dr. appointment. hopefully the rest you do and taking it easy will help out and keep that little one cooking for another 2 months. Keep us posted and for sure I'm praying for you.

Taylor said...

Praying Miss Sydney stays put for a few more weeks!

Immeasurably More Mama said...

Jill, I'm sorry things don't seem to be going the way you wanted. You and Sydney will be prayed for continually during the coming weeks. Give her lots of pep talks about staying put a little longer! :)

bb said...

Hoping baby girl stays put for a few more weeks. She will be healthy and happy just like Amelia no matter what. Stay strong, Mama.

andreajennine said...

Oh, I'm so sorry about the signs of preeclampsia! I'll be praying for the healthiest outcome for you and Sydney. I'll pray specifically that the preventative measures help and that IF a NICU stay is necessary, it will be the shortest possible.

Nitzia said...

I hope all goes well and Sidney stays in your belly for a while! I will be thinking of you and the baby :)

Faith said...

I've been praying constantly - every time the Lord brings y'all to mind. Love you both =)

annalee said...

you continue to inspire me through the way you share the lessons you are learning. praying for each day!

Jen said...

I'm sorry to hear this. But I have faith that things will be just fine with you and baby girl. I can't wait to meet her!!! Sorry I haven't been commenting much lately. Love you!

Betsy said...

I'm sorry Jill! I will be praying for you and sweet little Sydney! God has got you in his hands. It is still stressful though. :(

Sara said...

I am so sorry to hear that! I will be praying for you and sweet Sydney!

I did laugh at your comment about keeping Amelia away from the microwave:) Two year olds say the funniest things, even if a tad disturbing!

PJ said...

Stay put, little one! Stay put! :)

Man, do I remember! I was on home monitoring and had to take my blood pressure twice a day and call in the numbers. The nurses would tell me to lay on my left side, which... was the WORST for my heartburn!

I hope this goes perfect for you, that she stays put and fattens up, and the delivery goes well. BUT, you are soooo very strong and come what may, you guys will be fine.

So my friend, I wish you peace and calm in the coming weeks.

Thinking of you.

Mazzy said...

I'm so sorry, Jill. I cannot imagine the frustration of it all. I do know God is totally in control and he has this AMAZING plan for you and Sydney. I just pray he gives you peace in the midst of all that is going on right now.