Tuesday, February 7, 2012
I had my 32 week appointment yesterday. It didn't go as I had hoped. I'm starting to show signs of preeclampsia. 32 weeks is when I started showing signs of it with Amelia as well. My blood pressure was up, I had gained 10 pounds in 5 weeks, I've been having some pain in a certain area that concerned my doctor, and he couldn't help but notice my puffy face. Sooooo...I now have to go twice a week to see my doctor. They're going to see if it gets any better and if it doesn't, we'll start steroid shots to prepare Sydney for an early delivery. I cried most of yesterday afternoon. I really don't want her to have to spend time in the NICU like Amelia did. I don't feel prepared for her arrival in regards to her room and things like that, but mainly I just want her to be able to stay put for as long as possible. I learned with Amelia's birth that her room is the least of my worries. :) We were supposed to set the c-section date yesterday but my doctor said he didn't want to do that. He feels like it's going to be earlier than what we want regardless. I've been instructed to take it easy, drink lots of water, and put my feet up while laying on my left side for at least an hour every day.
By now, Sydney weighs about 3.75 pounds and is about 16.7 inches long. She'll gain a third to half of her birth weight during the next 7 weeks as she fattens up for survival outside the womb.
I could most definitely sit and worry and let my mind go to all of the "what-if's" but I'm choosing to give it to God every time I'm tempted to worry. My devotional a few days ago spoke about how we have to ask the Holy Spirit to control our thoughts, for the mind controlled by the Spirit is Life and Peace. It went on to say, we can have as much of God and His peace as we want, it all starts with the many choices we make during the day. We'll never run out of things to worry about but we can choose to trust Him no matter what. (Jesus Calling - February 5th)
I'm giving it to God each and every time my mind starts to wander - I'm choosing peace over worry.
"The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace." -Romans 8:6
Love to all,